I have to be honest here with each of you. Recently I have been having a hard time being so isolated from my home church and people that are like-minded. I haven’t felt like doing much of anything, including studying God’s word. I know that must sound bad to some of you, but I’m human and right now, I am having a really hard time.
The past week, the Lord has really convicted me of not putting Him first like I should. I feel it so strongly on me every day and today, I’m choosing to let God deal with me. When my husband joined the Army, we moved away from the only church we’ve ever known. We’ve been raised in the same faith and the same church our entire lives. But because there are not many of our churches in Texas, there are none close to us. It makes it hard to stay encouraged when you have zero fellowship and not many people reach out to you or try to keep in contact. I guess you could say I’m a mix of depression and anger at the moment.
When I write my blogs, I always make it a point to study before I get to writing. Because of that, I haven’t written in the past week because I don’t feel right about writing if I’m not studying His word like I should be. I love to write and I believe God blessed me with this talent for a reason. I want to use this talent for His glory, but I don’t want to write out of obligation. I want to write for the Lord out of sincerity.
Throughout this week, I plan to study Romans Chapter 3 in depth and will hopefully feel led to write about my studies come Monday or before then. I believe as military spouses, it is important that we have encouragement in our daily lives. I also believe that it is important to have God in our daily lives and with as busy as some of us are, including me, it can become a hard thing to do and remember.
But I am learning the hard way to put God first in everything that I do. I believe it is important for us to be open and honest with each other about our struggles and our victories. If you are suffering from the feelings of isolation and being forgotten about like me, just know that God is always there with you. Even if it feels like God has forgotten about you, remember that that is impossible. God will never forget about us and He will never abandon us.
When it comes to studying God’s word, we should do it out of love for His word. We should have a desire to learn more of Him and grow closer to Him. We should never approach the word of God out of obligation, like it is some duty we have to check off our to-do lists.
Be on the lookout for the next study. I desire each of your prayers as I journey through this valley.