Recently I haven’t been able to write, read my bible like I usually do, or pray because of my anger. My life has taken a turn that I never thought it would and the pain hurts so badly. I get up every morning, trying to put on a happy face and to act normal, but I find that I can’t. I go to sleep every night reliving the heartbreak that shattered my life into a million pieces. This pain has left me numb and lost on what to do.
I know that God is here with me, even if He feels distant from me. I know that I can cry out to Him and He is going to be there to help mend the wounds that I have. Yet, here I am, angry at the world and am taking it out on God. I’m ashamed to admit it, but there it is.
When we get thrown deep into the valley, with rushing waters drowning us spiritually, it can be hard to keep going forward. The devil makes it look so easy to quit, as if when we do our lives will mend themselves into something better, but that is a lie. If we give up on God because we’re angry and hurt by things He never caused, we’ll be even more miserable than before we were ever hurt.
Our anger will distance ourselves from God and His goodness, if we’re not careful. Anger can cripple us spiritually. It can keep us from receiving the healing that God wants to give us.
Ephesians 4:26-27 says, “Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath:” “Neither give place to the devil.”
Psalm 37:8 says, “Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.”
The bible is clear on the topic of anger. We see in these scriptures that anger by itself isn’t a sin, it is just an emotion that we as humans feel from time to time. What makes anger a sin in our lives is when we allow for it to overtake us and pull us away from God and into things of the world to help us cope. When anger seeps into our hearts, it is best to find time to spend with God in prayer. Whether it is hard to speak any words to Him or not in those heartbreaking moments when we’re fuming with anger, we should be seeking Him for peace and guidance.
I know I’m not the only one hurting today. I know that the pain I feel today is not something I have to carry all by myself. I serve a God that is able to turn my anger into peace and restore my life with joy. I know in order to mend myself and my heartache, I have to run towards God and not away from Him. Do you know that today too?
Life can be hard sometimes and people can be disappointing, but the God we serve will always remain the same. Don’t let your pain and anger keep you from your blessing today. The devil would have us believe that there is no way of fixing things, but God’s word tells us that there is always a way to fix our pain and lives. With God, we have the solution to our problems, but it takes us clinging to Him and going to Him on a daily basis to receive those healing solutions. Our solutions are waiting for us today and it is time we step out and receive them.