In life, you can never go back and change your past. The only thing you can do is continue to move forward, one day at a time. This is a truth that I have recently come to realize within my own life. Just a few years ago, I had no confidence in myself, not believing in myself to accomplish my dreams and goals. Because of my low self-esteem, I struggled in picking a major in college and sticking with it until the end.
Since I was in high school, I knew that I wanted to help people for the rest of my life. I wanted to go for nursing so bad. When college rolled around, I began to doubt myself and backed out of doing the nursing program. You see, I’ve never been good at math and I felt like because of that, I’d never make it in the field. I let myself believe I wasn’t good enough or capable of doing anything I set my mind to. That was six years ago.
Fast forward six years and now, I have applied to a community college for the LVN program. I even just recently talked with my advisor about my goals and my plans for the future. I never thought I’d be able to take this step and just go for something my heart has always wanted, but here I am going for it now at twenty-three. I’ve learned it is never too late to go for your dreams in life.
Satan will try his hardest to get us to believe we’re not good enough, smart enough, or capable to do what we know within our hearts we want to do with our lives. He’ll use tactics of deceit to get us to give up and go another direction with our lives, so that we don’t discover the passions and talents God has given us.
The bible says Satan is a deceiver, a liar, and a schemer. Whatever he speaks to us will never bring us self-confidence or belief. His words are meant to tear us down and strip us away from a God who loves us and created us to be smart, capable, and beautiful.
The other day I told myself, “I sometimes wish I could go back to my senior year of high school and have a do over. I’d be serious about school and my future. I would have my nursing degree by now. But I can’t go back, so it serves me no purpose to keep looking back. What I can do is move forward, taking steps each day to reach my goals. I can only go forward from here.”
So today, I am moving forward to my dreams. The process may seem impossible because of finances and it may come slowly, but at least I’m moving forward. Sometimes it takes years of self-doubt and trials to help us realize what we should have been doing all along and that is okay. It is through those lessons that we will see that God created us to do amazing things in our lifetimes.
If you have a dream today that you are scared of, pray and ask God to give you the confidence you need to accomplish it head on. God created our brains to be smart and capable of any task that is put before us. He created our hearts to have compassion, empathy, and faith. He created our hands so that we can work and use our talents and skills to bring Him glory. He has a purpose for each of us, but it is up to us to believe in that purpose and walk towards it each day, until it is fulfilled.
“Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began,” -2 Timothy 1:9