I can’t stop crying today and to be honest, I really can’t pinpoint why I have been crying. I guess you could say I’m in a funk and just can’t seem to find my way out of it. Whatever the reason is, my heart hurts today. It hurts because I’ve allowed my eyes to become unfocused and let disappointment into my heart.
When I graduated high school, I had big dreams for myself and my plan was to accomplish them. I wanted to become a Social Worker, move to a different state, have a big, important job that made me look awesome to those around me. I wanted a life full of success and my plan was to achieve it. But, I made choices that hindered those plans and eventually, I threw my hands up to my dreams.
Since the moment I threw my hands up, I’ve regretted it. My mom was right when she said I would, but I am a stubborn person and chose to believe I’d be happy with my choice. Why did I choose a choice that would make me so unhappy? Well, I could never really decide on what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. Yes, I dreamed of being an awesome Social Worker, but I also dreamed of making it somewhere in law and living in DC one day. Like I said, I had big dreams for myself.
What happened to those dreams? Did I give up on them because I don’t believe in myself or did I just not know what I wanted to do with my life? I’d say it was a mixture of both for me.
Can you relate to this story? Do you feel this way today?
Now that I’m older and married, I’ve realized I was always searching for who I am in college degrees, careers, and dreams. I was looking in all the wrong places to discover who I am. Don’t get me wrong, college degrees, careers, and dreams are great things to obtain and have, but they do not define who you are or your worth. They are achievements that we should be proud of, but they are not what defines us as human beings.
Colossians 3:1-2 says, “If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.” “Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.”
These scriptures teach us to set our eyes, hearts, and minds on heavenly things. Our entire being is supposed to be about God. In order for us to discover who we are, we first have to discover who God is. We discover ourselves and what we are meant to be doing with our lives when we discover who God is to us. Our identity is found in God.
These scriptures also teach us that the things of God are more important than the things of this earth. We are to put God and the things from above before anything else here on earth. When we get our hearts and minds fully focused on God, we will see our lives come together just the way God always intended for it to be. God is the one who weaves our lives together. It is not our degrees or our jobs that weave us into who we are, but it is God who does the weaving and defining.
We may have big dreams for our lives, but those dreams may not line up with God’s plan for us. If our dreams align with God’s will for us, they will always come to be.
I’ve had to learn the hard way that I needed to discover who God was before anything else in my life came to be. Why is that? It is because in order to have a true relationship with Him, we must know Him first. It takes getting to know God and His ways to see who we are to Him. When we discover God for who He is to us, we will see who we are to Him through His eyes.
It is through God that our identity is defined. It is through God that our worth is found.
Part of Jeremiah 1:5 says, “Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee;”
Genesis 1:27 says, “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.”
Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”
I love these scriptures because they remind us that God created us to be someone worth something. We were created in God’s image, which makes us beautiful, important, capable, and smart. God didn’t make a mistake when He created us. God knew what He was doing when He formed us into the people we are today. We’ve all been given special talents and skills to use throughout our lifetime. We were all created for a purpose that is bigger than ourselves.
This blog post is not only for those of you who read it, but it is also for me. I had to take a moment today to spend some time with God and remember that I am more than a job or college degree. I may have messed up when I was younger, but it is never too late to achieve your dreams or to discover a hidden passion that was just burning to come alive.
We were created by God for a purpose that is bigger than ourselves. We were created in God’s beautiful image, which makes us worth something special and important. It is through God that we are anything at all.
You have a college degree = worth something
You don’t have a college degree = worth something
You know what you want to do for the rest of your life career wise = worth something
You don’t know what you want to do for the rest of your life career wise = worth something
You have a job = worth something
You are a stay at home mom or wife = worth something
No matter what your occupation is or whether or not you are in college, you are worth something. Do not ever feel like just because your life isn’t moving in the same direction as those around you that you are just a loser or not worth anything in this life. Since God created you in His image, you are worth more than all the rubies in the world. Always remember that it is through discovering who God is, that we discover ourselves and who we are meant to be.