Father’s Day has always been a hard day for me because my dad really isn’t in my life the way I’d like for him to be. When I was 13 years old, my dad became an abusive alcoholic and my whole world changed for the worst. I endured so much abuse from him, that even today, I struggle with the mental affects it has had on me.
Seven years went by and I didn’t talk to my dad. My dad didn’t send me birthday cards, Christmas cards, call me, or write to me. I figured I’d never hear from my dad again and to be honest, I was okay with that. Everything changed when my grandfather died on Veterans Day of 2015. I had to face my biggest fear and that was facing my dad for the first time in seven years. But because of God and His strength, I was able to embrace my dad in a hug and talk to him during the visitation.
Even though my dad is now somewhat in my life, it still isn’t the same. Most days, I feel like I have no dad because we hardly ever talk or when we do it is only a few “I love you’s” and “I miss you’s”. What a relationship, right? I miss the man I admired years before he became an alcoholic. I simply miss the man he once was.
So this morning, my alarm went off and I honestly didn’t want to get up and go to church because I knew the sermon wasn’t going to apply to me or my life since it was going to be centered around father’s. But I decided against rolling back over and going to sleep because I knew I had to go worship God. I put on a nice dress and paired it with my favorite and only blue jean jacket and headed out the door to church.
I’m not going to sit here and say that I was all into the service today because then I would be lying. I honestly wasn’t into it for the majority of the time and even wondered, “Why did I even bother coming today?” I know, that’s wrong of me to do but it is the truth. But of course, God got me on how I was thinking and feeling towards the service.
I began to tear up as I thought about the God I serve and how far He has brought me. I began to think about what all God has brought me through and where I am today because of Him. It is because of my heavenly father’s love, comfort, and guidance that I am the woman I am today. I owe everything that I am to my Savior, my God, my heavenly Father.
Psalm 68:5 says, “A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation.”
That scripture came to mind today as I was sitting in church and it comforted me. I may not have a great earthly father, but I have an amazing heavenly father that is always there for me. I have a father that hears my cries the moment I cry out, a father who knows my needs before I ever ask anything of Him, and a father who is always there to love and comfort me in the good times and the bad times. I have the best father any woman could ever ask for.
I know today is hard for not just those of us who don’t have the best dads, but also for those who may have never had a dad in their life or for those who have lost their dads too soon in this life. Our earthly fathers may not be here, but we have a heavenly father who is with us today, tomorrow, and forever. Take comfort in knowing that you are not fatherless. You do have a father and a good one at that. Not only is God a good, good father, but He is the best friend we could ever have.
God is so great to us. God is our everything. God is a father to all. How great is He who loves us more than all creation? What a good, good father we have to call our own!
Part of Psalm 146:9 says, “He relieveth the fatherless.”
Job 29:12 says, “Because I delivered the poor that cried, and the fatherless, and him that had none to help him.”
I love that scripture found in Job 29:12 because it is a reminder that God is there for those of us who don’t have a father or father figure in our lives today. God takes us into His arms and loves us beyond measure and we never have to worry about that love going anywhere. Some fathers may change for the worst, some may leave and never come back, and others have been nonexistent since the day we were born, but one thing will always remain the same and that is, God has ALWAYS been our father and always will be.